Wednesday, December 28, 2016

Are you in need of help?

It's hard to admit your need for help. It's hard to admit that there are things you don’t know and don’t understand. It's hard to admit that there are things that you can’t do. It's hard to reach out and cry out for help.

It's hard to confess to weakness and ignorance. It's hard to have to depend on another for what you think you should be able to supply for yourself. It's hard to talk about what you don’t know and what you can’t do. It's hard to admit to poor judgment and wrong responses. It's hard to receive correction and to confess to sin.

Why are these things so hard?

Because we all like to buy into two very seductive lies. These lies argue against any need to be dependent.

The first lie is the lie of AUTONOMY. Autonomy tells me that I ‘m an independent being, with the right to do what I want to do, when, where, and how I want to do it.

Now you may be saying to yourself "I don't believe that!" Yet every time you defend yourself against the correction of another or tell someone not to tell you what to do, you buy into this lie.



The second lie is the lie of SELF-SUFFICIENCY. This lie tells me I have everything within myself to be what I’m supposed to be and to do what I’m supposed to do.

Perhaps you're thinking, "Okay, I do occasionally buy into my autonomy, but I definitely don't think I'm self-sufficient!" Yet each time you resist reaching out for help or each time you act as if you're okay when, in fact, you're not, you’ve bought into this lie.

Why are these two lies so wrong and so dangerous? Because the Bible clearly tells us that we’re people who have been made for COMMUNITY. We were designed to live in worshipful community with God and humble community with people.



We were never constructed to live all by ourselves. Even Adam and Eve needed God and one another. Think about this. They were perfect people, living in a perfect world, yet they were still needy because they were not created to live life on their own.

Remember, there are few people more influential in your life than you are because no one talks to you more than you do. You spend each day in constant conversation with you! And the things that you tell yourself shape what you do and say each day. Do you constantly remind yourself of your need of God and others? Do you tell yourself that it’s good to admit weakness and to reach out for help? If you do, it’s not a sign that something’s wrong. No, by God's definition, that kind of self-talk is a sign that something‘s very right.

How about beginning to pray these three prayers every morning:

"Lord, I‘m a person in desperate need of help today."
"Lord, won't you, in your grace, send your helpers my way."
"And please give me the humility to receive the help when it comes."


Are you intimidated by your weaknesses? Are you afraid to bare your needs to God and others? Jesus is the Prince of Peace, he came so that we’d be able to experience both peace with God and with others. He came so that we’d no longer have to seduce ourselves with the delusions of autonomy and self-sufficiency. He came so that we could be the kind of people we were created to be, living in humble worship of Him and humble dependency on others, right here, right now.

Monday, December 19, 2016

Rejoicing and joy

Suffering because of fear.....we've all endured it. In one way or the other, even tho it looks different for each person, we've all experienced it.

Maybe you have fear today, maybe your heart quakes a bit inside. The news headlines, fear that your close loved ones you know could be taken at any moment. Do you realize that we will all lose every single person we love? There is never another way. Think about that for too long and you find it hard to breathe.

The economy is a mess, things break down in your home, some people have medical problems personally or a family member that put you into debt.

Some days for all of us, as fallen humans, it's hard not to panic. You can feel it, we are all driven by fear of failure. For all our frenzied running around, could it be that we are actually fleeing--trying to escape all our fears? All this pain? All this "failure?" Do you live a life of quiet terror? Of soundless, hidden grief? Do you sometimes just want to weep for all that isn't and all that you aren't?

Well I have found in my own life personally that rejoicing in the Lord happens while we still struggle in the now. Struggling and rejoicing aren't 2 chronological steps, one following the other, but they are 2 concurrent movements, one with the other. :) As the cold can move you deeper towards the fire, struggling can move you deeper towards God, who warms you with joy. Struggling can deepen joy.

Even tho your life doesn't look like you thought it would, even though you may spend this Christmas without a special loved one, even though you don't remember the last time you had a struggle free day, whether it's because you have many small children, a troubled marriage, a job you despise, constant body aches, sleep deprivation, the list could go on and the reality is, some of you have more than 1 of these combined plus others I didn't list. But even tho we fail, even tho so much in this world fails, even NOW we can rejoice in the Lord! Even now we can be joyful in the God of our salvation.

The secret of joy is always a matter of focus: a resolute focusing on the Father, not on our fears. All fear is but the notion that Gods love ends. When does he ever end? When you can't touch bottom is when you touch the depths of God.

The solution to fear is focusing on the gift of salvation. The gift God sent us that first Christmas morning. Romans 8:32 in the Bible says this: " “He who did not spare his own Son but gave him up for us all, how will he not also with him graciously give us all things?”
‭‭If he gave you his son to save you, will he not give anything? Hasn't he already earned trust? You can take your hands off your life--you don't have to try to save yourself. Behold him everywhere, and be held.

Count your blessings each day, count and recount. Our worlds can be overwhelming and depressing unless we remember this secret of rejoicing and having joy. A song of thanks steadies everything.

Behold the goodness of the God of your salvation everywhere, and be held.



Tuesday, December 13, 2016

Heart

This is my first post actually sharing anything personal. Up until now I've just shared what's on my heart in devotion form, and what God has shown me through reading a devotion, or hearing a song, or just something he's placed on my heart from something I've seen.

Today I need to tell you that in my past I was very much about appearances. I was very much caught up in the world and how the world looks for beauty on the outside rather than on the heart.

In the story of David in being chosen by God as king in the Bible(you can read this story in 1 Samuel 16), he had seven brothers who were way more stout, taller and masculine then he, but God did not choose them to be king, he did not look at the outside appearance, he rather looked at the heart and he chose David.

At Christmas time it's hard not to look at the outward appearance of things: the lights, the sparkles, the cute little Christmas cards, the bow ties, the cookies, etc.

But what if we stop looking at the beauty in appearances and rather the beauty in HIS APPEARING!

God showed me a few years ago that I was only going to be able to change my life to live for him, if I began to change the way I saw things. God doesn't care what I look like, he cares about my heart.

The world lives fixated on facades, blinded to the realist real. This shiny shell of things can bind you and blind you.

Its a temporal world that elevates the foil, the plastic, the status, the skills, the physical, and the tangible. But it is God who elevates the heart, the interior, the soul.

Humanity obsesses with vapors not eternity.( “yet you do not know what tomorrow will bring. What is your life? For you are a mist that appears for a little time and then vanishes.”‭‭James‬ ‭4:14‬)

The reality was for me that I had lost my joy because I was caught up in the world. I was caught up in the bombardment I was being faced with of ads and gloss and Photoshop, it schooled me to have eyes for everything unimportant and unreal. From Hollywood to Pinterest, the media of this world aggressively schools your soul to see the exact opposite of the way God sees.(I plan on writing another blog sometime in future, as the Lord leads, sharing why we don't watch prime time tv, have Netflix, cable, etc.)

People aren't bodies they are hearts.

God has helped me train my eyes to turn everything inside out, and he can do that for you too. You can close your eyes and ask it, see it:
"is my life about the heart of things?" "is my Christmas?" "Am I deeply absorbed in him and the heart of things?" "Or is my life a shallow absorption with surfaces?"

It can affect us in all areas of life, and if it's the surfaces that absorb us, then we're mostly superficial.

God showed me that my priorities were not right because they were focused on things seen. He has now showed me that my priorities should rather be on things unseen, and it's only then that my life began to have substance and weight.

Only God can give us eyes to really see. To see past surfaces, to the heart of things, all the way down to the love.

I am praying now for all reading this. God bless you, and have a great day.

Monday, December 12, 2016

Real

Everyone reading this blog is someone that knows me personally, at least I think so, because I've only given out the link to people who I know. although I don't know if other people can read this because honestly even though I did graduate with a bachelors degree in business I have no idea how to set up a simple blog lol..... which could also be because I am not able to devote the time to doing computer things like I did in college, so anyway, I'm thankful I figured it out and am able to write.

Anyway, with that said most of you know me enough to know that I'm a very real person and I think sometimes actually it has caused me, and others a lot of heart ache because I have been too real with untrustworthy people and I have been too real with people who weren't ready and I'm not good with discerning that, I'm getting better, but when the Lord saved me and he took me and he rescued me out of the depths of my darkness I wanted to shout it from the mountains! and I think sometimes maybe I don't do that the best and maybe that I don't speak the truth in love the way I should, and be more sensitive.


I said all of that to say this: I would like to share some things that God has done in my life personally and in our marriage in the next few blogs. it's going to be very hard for me but I want to write this post first because I want to make sure that everyone reading this knows that I do not claim to be perfect by any means and I am not calling out anyone and that every single person that I gave this link I love you very much and I pray for you and I'm thankful that God is using this. a lot of you have told me and expressed that so thank you for the encouragement, but remember, it is not about me it is about HIM and what he can do with ashes...he can take ashes and turn them into something beautiful....he can take dry bones and make them come alive and that is exactly what he has done in my life. Have a good day everyone!

Thursday, December 8, 2016

LADDERS

JACOBS DREAM(from Genesis 28:10-16 in the Bible):

“Meanwhile, Jacob left Beersheba and traveled toward Haran. At sundown he arrived at a good place to set up camp and stopped there for the night. Jacob found a stone to rest his head against and lay down to sleep. As he slept, he dreamed of a stairway that reached from the earth up to heaven. And he saw the angels of God going up and down the stairway. At the top of the stairway stood the LORD, and he said, “I am the LORD, the God of your grandfather Abraham, and the God of your father, Isaac. The ground you are lying on belongs to you. I am giving it to you and your descendants. Your descendants will be as numerous as the dust of the earth! They will spread out in all directions—to the west and the east, to the north and the south. And all the families of the earth will be blessed through you and your descendants. What’s more, I am with you, and I will protect you wherever you go. One day I will bring you back to this land. I will not leave you until I have finished giving you everything I have promised you.” Then Jacob awoke from his sleep and said, “Surely the LORD is in this place, and I wasn’t even aware of it!””


You can feel it in your bones- sometimes when you stop for a moment, it's like life is the stairway that you just never stop climbing, this ladder that goes on forever without end.


You have this list of failures that stretch from earth up to heaven and they are like the rungs on a ladder, it's like all your rest just feels like lying down on one unforgiving stone.

Sometimes you're just the most tired of trying to be strong.

You have these Jacob dreams, and you dream of what might be.

But the most amazing dream that is reality and not a dream at all is that there are no ladders to climb up because Christ came down one to get you.

Jesus Christ himself interprets the dream: "I tell you the truth, you will see all heaven open and the angels of God going up and down on the Son of Man, the one who is the stairway between heaven and earth."(John 1:51)

Jesus doesn't show you the steps to get to heaven- Jesus IS the steps to heaven.

Jesus doesn't merely come down to show you the way up-Jesus comes down to make Himself into the Way to carry you up.

Jesus doesn't ultimately give you a how-to, because Christianity is not about that- it's not about How, it is about WHO.

Every religion, every program, every self-help book, is about steps you have to take. Jesus is the only one who becomes the step TO TAKE YOU.

To take us- The Jacobs, The tired, The debtors, and the desperate. To take US, who are the lost and a long way from arriving, US, who are the bone weary of all the trying and the striving.

Christ becomes the one step that we can never take-and takes us. He comes to us like he comes to Jacob-he comes to us not in spite of our failings, but Because of them. He is the God who is drawn to those who feel down. He is the God who is attracted to those who feel abandoned. He is the God who is bound to those who feel broken.

Everywhere there are stairways for the sinners, everywhere- ladders for the lost, and everywhere-gateways to God.

This is Grace. This is the reason to slow down, this is not to be missed.

How sad to make this Christmas time and his coming profane, to make it about fleshly performances, frantic running around and rushing, preoccupations, etc.

Profanity, writes Elisabeth Elliot, is "treating as meaningless that which is freighted with meaning. Treating as common that which is hallowed. Regarding as a mere triviality what is really a divine design. Profanity is failure to see the inner mystery."

You know we could slow and cease this profanity and see the inner mystery here. We could begin the "slow Christmas." We could set aside the to do lists that profane the inner mysteries and slow to see the weight of glory in the moment- The divine design of a day that unfolds with a Grace that is not to be missed.

The hallowed here.

Because being hurried always empties our souls.....

God doesn't want to number your failures or count your accomplishments as much as he wants you to have an encounter with him.

The only ladder over you is Love-and Love came down.

If, just for a moment, if you stand in the doorway-linger a bit in front of the tree- it's strange how you can see it--how every Christmas tree is a ladder, and Jesus is your ladder who hung on that tree.....so you can have the gift of rest.

When you are wrung out, that is the sign you've been reaching for rungs.

The work at the very heart of salvation, is the work of the very heart of Christmas: simply rest.

This rest, this stopping, this being in the here and now- is holy.

The wonder of all this is that God looks at you at your lowest and loves you all the way up to the sky. Grace carries you all the way home.

Tuesday, December 6, 2016

Live free and serve God

You can't live to meet all your needs and live to serve Christ at the same time. Live as his disciple; he's got your true needs covered.




We place many things in our "I just can't live without" category, but the reality is that many of them are not things we actually require for life. These things may be wonderful to enjoy and blessings from God, but they are not needs and must not be named as so. When we call them needs, we tell ourselves that we have to have them, that we cannot live without them, and that we have a right to demand them. So we end up evaluating the love of God on the basis of how many of the things that we think are needs have been delivered to us. As we do this, our lives get shaped by a needs focus, and we spend so much time thinking about and working toward acquiring our needs, that we have little personal time left for the larger pursuits of the kingdom of God.




Paul writes this to the church at Philippi: "I rejoice in the Lord greatly that now at length you have revived your concern for me. You were indeed concerned for me, but you had no opportunity. Not that I am speaking of being in need, for I have learned in whatever situation I am to be content. I know how to be brought low, and I know how to abound. In any and every circumstance, I have learned the secret of facing plenty and hunger, abundance and need. I can do all things through him who strengthens me. yes it was kind of you to share my trouble. And you Philippians yourselves know that in the beginning of the gospel, when I left Macedonia, no church entered into partnership with me in giving and receiving, except you only. Even in Thessalonica you sent me help for my needs once and again. Not that I seek the gift, but I seek the fruit that increases to your credit. I have received full payment, and more. I am well supplied, having received from Epaphroditus The gifts you sent, A fragrant offering, A sacrifice acceptable and pleasing to God. And my God will supply every need of yours according to his riches in glory in Christ Jesus. To our God and father be glory forever and ever. Amen."
(Philippians 4:10-20)



So, you quit worrying about your catalog of "I must haves" and are free to give yourself to the work of God's kingdom when:

*1- you are convinced that God will give you the strength you need to face whatever he has ordained you to face(" I can do all things through him who strengthens me") and
*2-you really do believe that God is actively committed to meeting everyone of your true needs("and my God will supply every need of yours according to his riches in glory in Christ Jesus")



When Grace causes your heart to rest in these truths, you no longer live a need obsessed life and are free to give yourself to the worship and service of God. ❤️

Saturday, December 3, 2016

Ask pastor John(copy and paste link into your browser to listen)

https://m.soundcloud.com/askpastorjohn/should-we-encourage-interracial-marriage-episode-966

Tuesday, November 29, 2016

NONE ARE RIGHTEOUS

The indictment of Romans 3 puts us all in the same boat: It says "None is righteous, no, not one; no one understands; no one seeks for God. All have turned aside; together they have become worthless; no one does good, not even one. Their throat is an open grave; they use their tongues to deceive. The venom of asps is under their lips. Their mouth is full of curses and bitterness. Their feet are swift to shed blood; in their paths are ruin and misery, and the way of peace they have not known. There is no fear of God before their eyes." Romans 3:9-18 Yes we are all sinners. we are all in the same desperate condition. none of us is better off than any other. none of us is more righteous. none of us is more deserving. none of us have anything to point to that would commend us to God. we are all in need to be rescued from the dark rebellion of our own hearts. there is only one hope for us all: the amazing, forgiving, rescuing, transforming, and delivering Grace of Jesus. The problem is we often don't see it that way, part of the blindness of sin is our tendency to be more irritated by and more concerned about the sin of the people next to us. because we are blind to our own sin and our eyes are open to theirs , we tend to see our neighbors as bigger sinners than we are, and when you fall into comparing yourself to another person you almost always conclude that you were more righteous than he is and when you conclude that you are more righteous than he is, you begin to minimize your own need for Grace. in this way false spiritual comparisons put you in spiritual danger they make you think you're better off than you are and weaken your resolve to seek and celebrate redeeming grace. we must cry out for Grace to deliver us from this tendency! yes we all stand before God deserving of his anger! how grateful we are to be that Christ bore our penalty so that we could bask in Gods Grace!

Wednesday, November 23, 2016

AWE

Awe:(noun) "a feeling of reverential respect, mixed with fear or wonder." It is a daily battle...... one that is free of physical weapons, political parties, and national boundaries.... It is a battle that has been raging since the garden and will not stop until the war is finally won. This battle is not fought between people, it is fought WITHIN people. It is a much greater danger to each of us than war between nations will ever be. It is a battle of awe..... We were created to live in a real heart gripping, agenda setting, behavior forming awe of God. But other awes kidnap our hearts. Awe of creation, awe of other people, and awe of ourselves, shove the awe of God out of our hearts. So we need grace to see again, to tremble again, and to bow down again at the feet of the ONE who deserves our awe.

Wednesday, November 16, 2016

ALONE

~Do you ever feel completely alone? Even though you know there's people around you that love you and care about you? Well I'm writing today to tell you that if your Gods child, you are loved today even if, in your human relationships, you are completely alone. ~It's happened to all of us and it's inevitable in this broken world in someway we are all left feeling alone. So what do you do? where do you run? what do you tell yourself? how do you respond when you are left alone? Such aloneness can cut deep and hurt because we were designed to be social. ~Immediately after Adam and Eve disobeyed God, tension erupted in their relationship and it became bad really fast. Cain, the son of Adam and Eve, even murdered his brother in a fit of sibling jealousy. ~In the world that we live in where sin has infected it, wrong infects our relationships. It shatters the community God intended us to live in and leaves many of us alone. ~This aloneness takes many forms such as: friends turn their back's on friends, husbands and wives divorce, neighbors move away, employees get fired, children reject their parents, churches divide, friends and relatives lose contact, old age leaves us lonely, death takes dear ones from us, etc. ~Yes, somewhere in your life, you will be left alone.....But it is in this experience of aloneness that you must remember the gospel of Jesus Christ. Jesus captured the relational beauty of this in his own life when, as he faced death, he said to his disciples- "behold the hour is coming indeed it has come, when you will be scattered each to his own home, and will leave me alone, yet I am not alone for the Father is with me."John 16:32. ~Yes people and circumstances leave you alone. Yet it is impossible for one of God's children to be completely alone because we have a Father in heaven who is always with us and he will not leave us no matter what. Remind yourself today that as God's child no matter how many people have walked out of your life, aloneness is a thing of your past.....:) PSALM 94: 11-22 “The LORD knows people’s thoughts; he knows they are worthless! Joyful are those you discipline, LORD, those you teach with your instructions. You give them relief from troubled times until a pit is dug to capture the wicked. The LORD will not reject his people; he will not abandon his special possession. Judgment will again be founded on justice, and those with virtuous hearts will pursue it. Who will protect me from the wicked? Who will stand up for me against evildoers? Unless the LORD had helped me, I would soon have settled in the silence of the grave. I cried out, “I am slipping!” but your unfailing love, O LORD, supported me. When doubts filled my mind, your comfort gave me renewed hope and cheer. Can unjust leaders claim that God is on their side— leaders whose decrees permit injustice? They gang up against the righteous and condemn the innocent to death. But the LORD is my fortress; my God is the mighty rock where I hide.” ‭‭

Tuesday, November 15, 2016

Today we have hope, not because people like us or because situations are easy, but because God has placed his unshakable love on us.

If we look to this fallen world to give us hope to continue, it's really just not going to work very well. Just think about the address where you live: -you live with fallen people who inevitably disappoint you in someway, -you live in a broken world where corruption and injustice are commonplace, -you face temptation somehow, someway, every day, -your physical body is growing older and can be infected with disease, -storms and pollution complicate your life, -Satan prowls doing his evil work, -the physical creation groans waiting for redemption, -war and strife pit nation against nation, -partiality and prejudice divide us. God created the world a certain way but sin has corrupted it and it does not function the way he created it or intended it to be so there is constant instability and unpredictability in the world around us. There are times when life is pretty easy and it works well, but there are many other times when financial loss, a sickness, a crime against you, the death of a loved one, etc. makes life very hard . Isn't it so awesome that we don't have to frantically look for hope horizontally where it just can't be found ? The Grace of God has connected us to hope. You see, hope is not a situation, it is not a location, a feeling, or a relationship. Hope is a person and his name is Jesus. His love is unconditional and his Grace is never temporary . He never makes you feel guilty for needing his good gifts and he doesn't ask you to earn what you can never deserve . He never gets tired of you or gives up on a relationship with you . He never throws your sin in your face, or mocks your weaknesses . He forgives all your sins and empowers you to do much better . He is present with you so that you're guaranteed to have everything you need . He came to earth and died a cruel death on the cross so that we can have and know life..... real life . Jesus is your hope as you live in a world where hope is a precious and rare commodity . Remember you are connected to him forever . This means there will be a day when you won't have to hope anymore because the paradise you have hoped for will be the eternal reality in which you live . ‬ Psalm 42 “As the deer longs for streams of water, so I long for you, O God. I thirst for God, the living God. When can I go and stand before him? Day and night I have only tears for food, while my enemies continually taunt me, saying, “Where is this God of yours?” My heart is breaking as I remember how it used to be: I walked among the crowds of worshipers, leading a great procession to the house of God, singing for joy and giving thanks amid the sound of a great celebration! Why am I discouraged? Why is my heart so sad? I will put my hope in God! I will praise him again— my Savior and my God! Now I am deeply discouraged, but I will remember you— even from distant Mount Hermon, the source of the Jordan, from the land of Mount Mizar. I hear the tumult of the raging seas as your waves and surging tides sweep over me. But each day the LORD pours his unfailing love upon me, and through each night I sing his songs, praying to God who gives me life. “O God my rock,” I cry, “Why have you forgotten me? Why must I wander around in grief, oppressed by my enemies?” Their taunts break my bones. They scoff, “Where is this God of yours?” Why am I discouraged? Why is my heart so sad? I will put my hope in God! I will praise him again— my Savior and my God!” ‭‭